Depravity

I've run out of reasons
Thought I had enough for the seasons.
I was wrong.
It doesn't feel good.
Instead I'll ride the wave
At least until I'm out of this cave.
Snow falls on the mountainside
My contempt threatens to collide.
Your will of wills,
Threatened toward the hills.

Run away!
You're so fucking good
Self righteously you stood
Awaiting my decree;
I will not say.
Your mantra written
In blood on the wall.
"What stands tall must fall."
Remember words of wisdom
Originate from a corrupt mind.
Enslaved are you 'til the end.
Write me a letter you will not send.

When it's said and done,
You'll be forever alone.
On the verge of collapse
The script reaches its final verse
Destined to play over again
Until God decides to end this refrain.
Take up your needle, take up your pill.
Please remember to have your fill.
Written in red on the windowsill:
"Vibrant Winter. Dead Spring. Bitter Summer.
Alive Fall."

Past contempt, present scorned

Arrogance unwarranted
Boasts of ages
Unclean and impure
Derived from death
Save the filth
Wash it away
Can't get clean
Your image burned
Into the pages
Of my mind
This story ends
Not soon enough
Let it go
Let me go
Where's the key?
Been chained enough
Feelings of ardor
Not for you
Disgusted am I
You're left behind
All too vague
Comes your plea
For another life
You're too corrupt
You can't have
What angels have
Only the devil
Can console you
Can embrace you
Can replace you
So it is
So it'll be
Forever bleed

Deceiver

Love of your life,
echo the pain that you feel
the resentment that breeds
in your heart overturned.
Dejected and dismissed
You're not one to be fucked with.

Let the spirit take you,
The mood strikes me.
I allow my heart to be free
I imagine waters so clear
That hate won't dare connect with.
Pay all your debts...

Love of your life,
let it be known
It's not yours but mine.
Bittersweet is this acquiescence
For there is wrath to be had.
Surrender to a higher power.

Leave this life behind.
Bitter and dead within
You've lost more than you know
To a deceiver who has stripped you
No dignity, no faith, no way
Aimlessly left to thirst.

Espiritu

Essence of life
guarded for generations.
Dementia sets in;
The flow gone.

Let the thoughts pour out
Like water into a basin
Filling and fulfilling
This corrupt soul.

Leave a dime
For the unapologetic
They'll need it
where they're going...

Creatively castrated,
Sit upon a sea
Of your own regret
Setting sail to the void.

Bound

Deep is the everything
Deep is the mantra
Draw the bucket from your well
The well that is your soul.

You're so in hate
Why not create?
The sun burns your skin
Let's begin again...

Bruises stain your flesh
Bleeding fast and fresh
Broadened is your hatred
For the father strikes you down

You're so in hate
Why not eliminate
Those who oppose you
The list a mile long?

His hate for you crippling
Hot are your tears
Hungering for a respite
It's up to you now

You're so in hate
Why not fabricate
This so called life
You've surrendered to...

A light called love
Illuminates the path
You've craved so long
Embrace a world's fate

You're so in hate
Why not satiate
While the bastard waits
Holding what's left of you
In his hands...

Glass Mask pt 1

You're living behind a glass mask
Telling time has become a task.
The hands tick by and around
I can feel you on the ground.
Hand within my hand
I scoop up all the grains of sand
Looking for a pearl of wisdom
Accepting of your thralldom.

I fashioned a key from your sadness
It turns but it does not open this,
Door of foreboding imprisonment;
Let me free from this internment.
I crave a lake of purity
To distract me from surety.
Instead I live behind a glass mask;
Justifying the drawing of breath,
Not so easy a task.

Say your goodbyes

I saw your secret
You wear it as a shell
Cling to it for dear life
Consumed with self image

You're a fucking liar
A big disgrace
Conceited to the core
I don't want to listen

Throw away respect
Give away hope
Proposition your whores
Let me go.

Don't look back
This can't be fixed
You've done it now
I will not budge.

Forget the truth
It will not be
As long as you see
With broken perception.

To make up for a lie
A fruitless task
An endeavor that's dead
Say your goodbyes.

A Sight For The Debt Collector's Coffer.

I'm caught in your whirlwind
Decimated by the unkind.
Hold my hand as I unwind.

Sour as the day I was born
Left to be nothing but forlorn
I forsake what it is I yearn.

Debt I can't pay
Will you come back another day?
Better yet continue to stray...

A sinking ship crests the sky
I think it's time to say goodbye
Or maybe you'll live your lies.

A part

I feel emptier than a hole.
Basking in self pity
Unable to be consoled.
I walk through this city
A victim of circumstance
a child Left behind from this atrocity.
Awaiting divine intervention.
To never see you rsmile,
To never hear your laugh
Is enough to drive me out
Into a hapless existence.
A soul so dead
It may as well be me left in the ground.

Respite

Daring deity
From the sky
Hold me as I wind down
Come back to earth
Can't catch my breath
Dead before I hit the ground
My spirit is in need of resuscitation
Or maybe less castration
From your overbearing debt
I will not pay.

Loving mother
From a dream
Collect what you've sought
In the pages turning black
Make up for what you lack
A soul is not a bargaining chip
And for this you'll catch the whip
Coming down upon me I will not fight it
To dream one must sleep
Yet I can't seem to keep
My heart is gone.

Overbearing father
Come to reality
Overindulgent ego to a fault
No light in this vault
Consumed with the void
The book of life is crumbling
The names reduced to nothing
There is no respite coming
Salvation a distant past
Immerse yourself in space
Let the vacuum envelop you
Oblivion as a form of creation
A Desolate recreation.