"Erin, Across America"

It's a fucking beautiful day. The sun is shining, there's a cool breeze. Good music is playing. I am free. This time of year makes me feel liberated like no other time of the year, and I'm not quite sure why. I am the opposite of other people...summer has always been a period of chaos and discord for me since I was younger, yet the fall always brings with it a liberating release.
When I think of the fall I can't wait to see people decorating for Halloween, and the leaves change. I look forward to the just warm enough days, and the cool nights which pave the way to winter time. I feel inspired, renewed and all I want to do is proclaim this to all, so needless to say I'm glad I unearthed this blog LOLL.

Leaves change like my soul changes.
I warm up to the idea of joining our hearts together
As the nights get colder, and colder...

Forsaken

I'm glad to know I can let you go,
Discard you like a passing phase.
Deny what we had was love.
Regret fom the deepest reaches of my soul.
Open my heart and become appauled,
Its contents are stained with your blood.
Not even a thorough cleaning could fix this,
Or help me replace what I've lost,
Rather, given up.

The sky was blue, now it's yellow
Like the field we spent our days in.
Bittersweet was your kiss now gone.
I don't feel vindicated, I don't feel at ease.
I release words from myself at the pace of a dead rose
Waiting for the time to be right again.

Time to leave, time to begin anew.
I call your name out in a dream
As the moon sets on the plight of my fate.
Laughing at what remains.
Jesting at the very nature of the beast.
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never loved at all.

Cassiopeia

It's rainy ass days like this that I have a love/hate relationship with. On the one hand, it's dreary and shitty out, but on the other hand I feel energized, relieved, renewed. I can feel fall in the air, and like the conundrum I am, autumn is a time of rebirth for me. I can feel the cells of my soul recharging and becoming whole again. I long to create and do something substantial. I wish every day was like this....
Things overall are looking up. There are still things I don't have control over(relationships) that I need to let go to fate, but that is difficult. I think I'll make this short today.

A Loss Is A Loss Is An Endless Fugue

Wrought from a fate colder than iron,
Desolate is the one who starves his soul.
God comes and then abandons you who thirst not.
Love abandons you who believed not in virtue.
Faithless is he who resides in this place.
This blood thirsty building cares not
For your abandoned pride.
You challenged the gods and lost, ha,
Yet he who challenges not dies in vain.

Break free from your foolish pain,
Cast aside what you cannot see.
Yearn for what you will never be.
Destroy the heart that burns
As the world continues to turn.
It leaves a bitter taste on your palate
Which you will never be free of.

Lay on your back;
Learn to break free from this self imposed oppression.
Break the surface like it's a patch of thin ice.
Plunge headfirst into the doubts and dissatisfactions
Which plague you like an old haunt.
Then, claw for the surface before you suffocate;
Remember this is a dream, our dream
And you're destined to sleep eternally,
Yet so are we all in this race to superfluous oblivion

Come back quickly as you learn to be defeated;
In the blink of an eye you'll be gone and he'll have moved on,
So bury your heart in your sleeve as destiny allows.
Decided is fate which toys with your very being,
Deny who you are and you'll be as the grave.
Longing for fulfillment; So cold is its embrace.
Pray not, and fear less
For yours is a fate one couldn't hope to transcend.
So elate in your victory, and I'll wallow in my losses
Like a ripple makes a wave my heart will create tranquility
from this ceaseless gyre.